Happy Halloween!!
The kids woke up this a.m. almost more excited than on Christmas morning.
They've been asking about Halloween since the beginning of the month and keep asking, "..how many more days!!".
So, today is the day and they are wearing their costumes and are extremely happy about having pizza and going on a hunt for candy tonight with their friends!!
I dropped Evan off in his cowboy costume this morning and had a stabbing reminder of his first three years of Halloween and how he wouldn't wear a costume and screamed when we tried to take him trick-or-treating.
We continued to try every year and with the same results and didn't have a clue about autism or what it was. All we knew and felt was that we had somehow failed as parents and we just couldn't seem to get it right....not even a fun night of trick-or-treating..!!
Oh, how we would watch all the happy kids come to the door and would try to show our first born that it was fun..but, he wasn't having it..!! He didn't even eat candy..unless it was a solid piece of chocolate!!
I also remembered my dream while I was pregnant with him. I dreamed of all the happy moments we would have together..making cookies, coloring, dressing up for Halloween...you know those "commercial moments" that seem to make a family look proper and put together.
And the years that followed were almost more like a nightmare.
The screaming fits, the consistant "shunning" from other moms, the unsuccessful potty training and all the things that come along with this small diagnosis of "high functioning autism"..and we didn't have much of a clue then either!!
But I watched him get out of the car this a.m. with his cowboy costume on..watched him take his hat off so it didn't blow away and all I could do was smile at this handsome little guy that can't wait to show off his costume to his friends at school and looks forward to this day.
Somehow my dreams are slowly coming to life..in a way..and in it's own time.
I feel like a cloud has been slowly lifting off of us and that things are changing and you know I'm thanking God all the way..!!
It's been a test of us all..marriage isn't easy with a child on the spectrum or special needs in fact, most people don't make it. The statistics are pretty high.
Thank you God!
We also were blessed with Olivia who came fully typical and every part of her, I believe, has helped her brother in a way I can't explain.
Thank you God..Thank you!!
I know I have said this all before..but, tomorrow will be November and I need to remind myself to count my blessings..all of them..name them one by one..!
Happy Halloweeen..and remember if a kid comes to your door and they seem to be just a little off..be kind..and have lots of grace!! (unless it's a teenager..and they are like almost out of high school...bahahaa..!!)
The kids woke up this a.m. almost more excited than on Christmas morning.
They've been asking about Halloween since the beginning of the month and keep asking, "..how many more days!!".
So, today is the day and they are wearing their costumes and are extremely happy about having pizza and going on a hunt for candy tonight with their friends!!
I dropped Evan off in his cowboy costume this morning and had a stabbing reminder of his first three years of Halloween and how he wouldn't wear a costume and screamed when we tried to take him trick-or-treating.
We continued to try every year and with the same results and didn't have a clue about autism or what it was. All we knew and felt was that we had somehow failed as parents and we just couldn't seem to get it right....not even a fun night of trick-or-treating..!!
Oh, how we would watch all the happy kids come to the door and would try to show our first born that it was fun..but, he wasn't having it..!! He didn't even eat candy..unless it was a solid piece of chocolate!!
I also remembered my dream while I was pregnant with him. I dreamed of all the happy moments we would have together..making cookies, coloring, dressing up for Halloween...you know those "commercial moments" that seem to make a family look proper and put together.
And the years that followed were almost more like a nightmare.
The screaming fits, the consistant "shunning" from other moms, the unsuccessful potty training and all the things that come along with this small diagnosis of "high functioning autism"..and we didn't have much of a clue then either!!
But I watched him get out of the car this a.m. with his cowboy costume on..watched him take his hat off so it didn't blow away and all I could do was smile at this handsome little guy that can't wait to show off his costume to his friends at school and looks forward to this day.
Somehow my dreams are slowly coming to life..in a way..and in it's own time.
I feel like a cloud has been slowly lifting off of us and that things are changing and you know I'm thanking God all the way..!!
It's been a test of us all..marriage isn't easy with a child on the spectrum or special needs in fact, most people don't make it. The statistics are pretty high.
Thank you God!
We also were blessed with Olivia who came fully typical and every part of her, I believe, has helped her brother in a way I can't explain.
Thank you God..Thank you!!
I know I have said this all before..but, tomorrow will be November and I need to remind myself to count my blessings..all of them..name them one by one..!
Happy Halloweeen..and remember if a kid comes to your door and they seem to be just a little off..be kind..and have lots of grace!! (unless it's a teenager..and they are like almost out of high school...bahahaa..!!)
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