It's another snow day here. Actually..technically a "snow squall". When the wind carries the snow in every direction all at once it creates white out conditions. Like a white fog of snow.
Lovely.
No thanks to going out.
So I'm here!
And as the weather is chaotic and somewhat crazy out..I'm feeling that in my soul today.
I hate when the weather plays with my emotions!
I just feel tired.
Wondered if you felt that way, too?
Tired of praying for breakthroughs in my house. Tired of trying one more time to get out and meet new people. Tired of trying to be a better parent. Tired of trying to make my house clean. (..it doesn't end!) Tired of the weather. (Yep..it's Feb. and I'm really DONE..!) Tired of my soul being not ok. Tired of worrying about things that I cannot control.
Needless to say, with a deep sigh..I'm tired.
On a nicer note, the kids are in school today..so I might have won this round today!
I don't think I'm alone. I know the heavy hearts we have for our kids and family and I know it takes great courage to walk through these emotions.
It takes an insane amount of courage to have faith that God will restore, redeem and sometimes just walk us through the depths of our own sorrow...oh, but in his timing.
The journey leaves us a bit weak and faint and I know he knows that.
Do you know the shortest verse in the Bible has the most deepest and profound effect on me. All I have to do is think about it or say it and I'm faced with the most compassionate encounter with Jesus and am reminded that he actually is near.
Jesus Wept. John 11:35
He was moved to compassion for Martha, who just lost her brother, in the previous verses and had prolonged his stay because he already knew he'd bring him back to life..yet..he sees her there..looks into her eyes and sees how she is overcome by her grief and because he is overwhelmed by compassion for her..he weeps.
He takes the time to cry with her.
That is so moving to me.
I'm tearing up now, just thinking about how many times I've cried and then wondered..Jesus, did you cry with me, too?
I know how easy it is to think that crying is a source of weakness, but when I know that I have a savior who just sits with me and validates my emotions and feels with me, too..I know he is near.
That is why I believe that he is the Christ. That he comes near to me and stays near.
Mark 1:15 15 “The time has come,” he said. “The kingdom of God has come near. Repent and believe the good news!”
So..he's saying..I'm near to you. I'm here to sit with you. Whether in your joy or sorrow..I'll always be near. Talk to me about what's on your heart and let me comfort you.
And I can just let go of all the emotions and feels and I can get my chaotic soul to come to order. Then I'm able to say "it is well with my soul"..again.
I hope you are having better weather than I am and that your soul is well, too!!
Happy Tuesday!
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