A little hope to give..
I think every opening line so far of writing this blog has been.."It's been awhile.." because it seems that months go by between some. That's ok by me, though, because it's busy enough feeding, cleaning up after, and chaperoning two children here, there and everywhere..! (And if I'm really honest, I'm only writing this because I missed my class at the gym!)
So...Tis' the season of life for me..and Christmas..!
And we have 17 days! :)
As expected, Evan and Olivia have grown taller and will not stop. They keep asking odd questions..some I can't answer and have to admit it. Sometimes I randomly catch them doing something good for another. Most of the time, though, they fight..like siblings! They are growing in a healthy and natural way, though..and I am humbled and grateful for this family of mine.
When I look back on all my Christmas's from childhood up until now, the only ones that really count are the one's that I share with Scott and the kids. And no matter what I do or where I go, I still have to re-live a little of all my childhood squashed hopes of what I thought Christmas (or if I'm being honest..mostly the entire Holiday season..ok..entire life..!) should have been like.
I'm sure that's what people wanted to see written on my Christmas cards..lol!!
But, truth be told, as a little girl I wondered what made every other kid so special as to get a gift from their parents and then me..nothing. Oh, sure, there were a few years when I'd get a little..but, it was never something I could hope for or count on.
And hope is something we all need, right?
Needless to say, hope has become a special word for me. It is universally contagious when you give it to others in a word or a card or email/text..whatever! You can change the hardest seasons in someones life by reminding them there is hope and something worth living for.
It's almost as if you could somehow mend a soul with hope.
Some people don't want to waste their precious and hard earned time giving you an ounce of hope. And some people like to give it out like crumbs when they should be giving it out like buckets of water being filled up by a waterfall.
But Christ is that hope for me when people fail me or find me unworthy of what they have. When they hold you at an arm's length and keep you at a distance (while maybe throwing crumbs..lol!!).
And most people do.
And sometimes I feel like I've gotten nothing to give either.
Yet..I know when I pray, I'm heard. I know that this heart of mine has been broken over and over, but can be mended. And I know that our situations change from season to season and so does the way we look at life.
I was reminded a few times over the past few weeks how my words have impacted others. (Trust me..there is no cult following!) But, I've been playing George in "It's a wonderful life"...the dramatic George..who wonders what on earth he is living for.
Let's all agree not to be dramatic George. Let's be restored George..full of hope for his family, friends and life situation.
And for heavens sake..can't we all get a happy ending?!!
So, If I don't get back on here soon..Merry Christmas!!
So, go now and throw out some hope!!
Try not to scare people! ;)
So...Tis' the season of life for me..and Christmas..!
And we have 17 days! :)
As expected, Evan and Olivia have grown taller and will not stop. They keep asking odd questions..some I can't answer and have to admit it. Sometimes I randomly catch them doing something good for another. Most of the time, though, they fight..like siblings! They are growing in a healthy and natural way, though..and I am humbled and grateful for this family of mine.
When I look back on all my Christmas's from childhood up until now, the only ones that really count are the one's that I share with Scott and the kids. And no matter what I do or where I go, I still have to re-live a little of all my childhood squashed hopes of what I thought Christmas (or if I'm being honest..mostly the entire Holiday season..ok..entire life..!) should have been like.
I'm sure that's what people wanted to see written on my Christmas cards..lol!!
But, truth be told, as a little girl I wondered what made every other kid so special as to get a gift from their parents and then me..nothing. Oh, sure, there were a few years when I'd get a little..but, it was never something I could hope for or count on.
And hope is something we all need, right?
Needless to say, hope has become a special word for me. It is universally contagious when you give it to others in a word or a card or email/text..whatever! You can change the hardest seasons in someones life by reminding them there is hope and something worth living for.
It's almost as if you could somehow mend a soul with hope.
Some people don't want to waste their precious and hard earned time giving you an ounce of hope. And some people like to give it out like crumbs when they should be giving it out like buckets of water being filled up by a waterfall.
But Christ is that hope for me when people fail me or find me unworthy of what they have. When they hold you at an arm's length and keep you at a distance (while maybe throwing crumbs..lol!!).
And most people do.
And sometimes I feel like I've gotten nothing to give either.
Yet..I know when I pray, I'm heard. I know that this heart of mine has been broken over and over, but can be mended. And I know that our situations change from season to season and so does the way we look at life.
I was reminded a few times over the past few weeks how my words have impacted others. (Trust me..there is no cult following!) But, I've been playing George in "It's a wonderful life"...the dramatic George..who wonders what on earth he is living for.
Let's all agree not to be dramatic George. Let's be restored George..full of hope for his family, friends and life situation.
And for heavens sake..can't we all get a happy ending?!!
So, If I don't get back on here soon..Merry Christmas!!
So, go now and throw out some hope!!
Try not to scare people! ;)
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