learning to trust..
Well a Happy be-lated New Year's!
Did you make resolutions?
I never do. It's like asking me to make up reasons to fail!
However, I do spend a little bit of time assessing areas of my life that could use a little "spring cleaning". Things that I know can benefit me if I get a start on it now.
One major issue that I'm putting a magnifying glass up to is "trust".
I have flipped my car radio to the song "Ocean" by Hillsong a little too much recently and it seems to cut in right at the words "spirit lead my where my trust is without borders.." not to mention it seems to be the theme song to our MOPs group.
And those are the words I sort of skip over when I'm singing.
I have thrown in the white flag.
My insides flip and I can say "NO" more with my body language before I even say it!
Trust is one thing, but trust without borders is not something I'm even partially capable of pretending I could accomplish.
I do admire the ladies in my life that this is something natural for them. In fact, it's a beautiful thing to watch and it almost always makes me teary eyed.
Recently I heard a speaker say that often times the way we reject people is first based on the withholding of trust. That offering trust first can build relationships in an amazing way. And that offering trust is also a great way to re-build broken relationships.
I am getting weak in the knees and feeling faint.
And I know beyond a shadow of a doubt it's a good place to roll up my sleeves.
I hope this isn't just me.
In fact, why does it feel like I'm always alone in the emotional department?!!
Of course not, doesn't it seem the writer of the song probably has some issues, too..!!
Maybe it's just me and the writer..lol!
Isn't it something that the one thing that seems to be repetitive in the bible is "do not fear".
Fear always seems to be the reason we can't trust..in the situation..the person..the outcome. Fear of failure, being hurt by people, of the unknown.
Again, I feel a little faint..this is hard stuff!!
But, it's a sacrifice I'm willing to give up to God.
A sacrifice is something that is heavy. Something I cannot bear the weight of anymore and have finally decided I need help.
And finally decided that I have to let go of.
I am not going to lie.
It will probably be a struggle.
And maybe..just maybe..I'm not alone.
Maybe you've got something that's heavy enough to let go of, too!!
Maybe not..but, something I've come to know is that life is sweeter when you have a friend by your side!
I hope you have a great year and that whatever resolutions or goals you've set for yourself are met!!
Wish me luck..I'm gonna need it!! ;)
Did you make resolutions?
I never do. It's like asking me to make up reasons to fail!
However, I do spend a little bit of time assessing areas of my life that could use a little "spring cleaning". Things that I know can benefit me if I get a start on it now.
One major issue that I'm putting a magnifying glass up to is "trust".
I have flipped my car radio to the song "Ocean" by Hillsong a little too much recently and it seems to cut in right at the words "spirit lead my where my trust is without borders.." not to mention it seems to be the theme song to our MOPs group.
And those are the words I sort of skip over when I'm singing.
I have thrown in the white flag.
My insides flip and I can say "NO" more with my body language before I even say it!
Trust is one thing, but trust without borders is not something I'm even partially capable of pretending I could accomplish.
I do admire the ladies in my life that this is something natural for them. In fact, it's a beautiful thing to watch and it almost always makes me teary eyed.
Recently I heard a speaker say that often times the way we reject people is first based on the withholding of trust. That offering trust first can build relationships in an amazing way. And that offering trust is also a great way to re-build broken relationships.
I am getting weak in the knees and feeling faint.
And I know beyond a shadow of a doubt it's a good place to roll up my sleeves.
I hope this isn't just me.
In fact, why does it feel like I'm always alone in the emotional department?!!
Of course not, doesn't it seem the writer of the song probably has some issues, too..!!
Maybe it's just me and the writer..lol!
Isn't it something that the one thing that seems to be repetitive in the bible is "do not fear".
Fear always seems to be the reason we can't trust..in the situation..the person..the outcome. Fear of failure, being hurt by people, of the unknown.
Again, I feel a little faint..this is hard stuff!!
But, it's a sacrifice I'm willing to give up to God.
A sacrifice is something that is heavy. Something I cannot bear the weight of anymore and have finally decided I need help.
And finally decided that I have to let go of.
I am not going to lie.
It will probably be a struggle.
And maybe..just maybe..I'm not alone.
Maybe you've got something that's heavy enough to let go of, too!!
Maybe not..but, something I've come to know is that life is sweeter when you have a friend by your side!
I hope you have a great year and that whatever resolutions or goals you've set for yourself are met!!
Wish me luck..I'm gonna need it!! ;)
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