At about 3 a.m. last night I was wide awake with my eyes closed just a waiting to go back to sleep.
And I kept thinking, "any minute now I'll be asleep..!"
Yeah, it never happens that way.
Somehow I kept thinking of a lonely ship in the middle of the ocean during a massive storm and the waves were just beating against the ship.
Something like this..
And I kept thinking, "any minute now I'll be asleep..!"
Yeah, it never happens that way.
Somehow I kept thinking of a lonely ship in the middle of the ocean during a massive storm and the waves were just beating against the ship.
Something like this..
I'm not sure why. I know very little about ships.
For certain, I was feeling the loneliness for the ship, especially when you are going through something so excruciating and painful, you feel like no one cares, no one knows, or maybe no one cares to know...?
Yeah, I've been there..!
Yeah, I've been there..!
In most circumstances, people turn to family, but that wasn't much of an option for me.
My faith was really all I had to cling to.
And by cling, I mean I had a holy death grip onto a rope that seemed to be loosening very slowly!
There are things you go through in life that you move on from and then there are things that you go through that alter you in such a way that you cannot go back to the person you used to be.
Now, I wonder what kind of people are out there who have been here, in this place, at some point crying into your pillow because years have gone by and nothing has changed.
And what happens to us, when we have almost been shipwrecked by life that we are so raw and sore and just plain tired?
There's a bit of good news.
We survive..altered..but we survive.
We make it the best way we can.
We don't judge ourselves for handling it wrong..we keep moving.
Because when you play a piano piece, you are taught to keep moving through the mistakes because that is just what you do.
You realize that you are incapable of handling it alone.
I needed a lighthouse.
A place to shine light on the darkness and help me see.
And I just noticed there is another boat in this picture.
Interestingly, there is always someone else who needs your encouragement and support and they need to know that they aren't alone.
At that is it, really, we are not independent but interdependent.
My story, even though it is not affiliated to anyone but me and my family, can be what someone else needs to hear.
Life is odd like that..!
Next time I hope I wake up at 3 a.m. with something happier..lol!
Happy Tuesday!
:)
And what happens to us, when we have almost been shipwrecked by life that we are so raw and sore and just plain tired?
There's a bit of good news.
We survive..altered..but we survive.
We make it the best way we can.
We don't judge ourselves for handling it wrong..we keep moving.
Because when you play a piano piece, you are taught to keep moving through the mistakes because that is just what you do.
You realize that you are incapable of handling it alone.
I needed a lighthouse.
A place to shine light on the darkness and help me see.
And I just noticed there is another boat in this picture.
Interestingly, there is always someone else who needs your encouragement and support and they need to know that they aren't alone.
At that is it, really, we are not independent but interdependent.
My story, even though it is not affiliated to anyone but me and my family, can be what someone else needs to hear.
Life is odd like that..!
Next time I hope I wake up at 3 a.m. with something happier..lol!
Happy Tuesday!
:)
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