I am supposed to be in bed at my early bed-time hour of 9 p.m(don't laugh I like sleep a little more than most)...but, i decided to come for a snack and lo and behold..God is on my heart..and I'm supposed to say thank-you to all my friends and family who pray over us and encourage us.
A couple of weeks ago I hit a moment when my brain and hormones collided amongst the circumstances surrounding Evan and his autism..and I did what every female on the planet would do...I balled my eyes out...!! I cried for everything..prayed and prayed over everything..and also complained about everything...!
I complained about being alone the most..and made the mistake of asking God why I have gone through this with very little prayers of others. But, I have to own up to the fact that I've never really asked either.
Then, something happened last Sunday morning..and I was given an understanding that people are praying for us in an overwhelming way. People all over, people I don't know in our gigant-or church..whom I may have never met..people from other churches..and people who are praying with the wind in the passing and thought of us for a milli-second. And, I don't even know how to explain it..but, i need to say thanks to anyone who does..and to anyone who sends an encouraging word or thought. Don't stop..and you don't need to tell..just keep on doing what you are doing..!!
For the longest time I always felt as if people complicated my life and my families. But, you really need people sometimes..in ways that you will never know..in prayers that you will never hear. You need every bit of support for the little as well as the big.
And, at the moment I realized I needed the people in my life, I also learned the biggest truth...God is with me. He never left me and his proof is in the humbling experience of feeling that people are appointed to pray for us..he is taking care of us..just trust, Laura...just trust..then breath..then say thank-you..then, go back to bed..!!
A couple of weeks ago I hit a moment when my brain and hormones collided amongst the circumstances surrounding Evan and his autism..and I did what every female on the planet would do...I balled my eyes out...!! I cried for everything..prayed and prayed over everything..and also complained about everything...!
I complained about being alone the most..and made the mistake of asking God why I have gone through this with very little prayers of others. But, I have to own up to the fact that I've never really asked either.
Then, something happened last Sunday morning..and I was given an understanding that people are praying for us in an overwhelming way. People all over, people I don't know in our gigant-or church..whom I may have never met..people from other churches..and people who are praying with the wind in the passing and thought of us for a milli-second. And, I don't even know how to explain it..but, i need to say thanks to anyone who does..and to anyone who sends an encouraging word or thought. Don't stop..and you don't need to tell..just keep on doing what you are doing..!!
For the longest time I always felt as if people complicated my life and my families. But, you really need people sometimes..in ways that you will never know..in prayers that you will never hear. You need every bit of support for the little as well as the big.
And, at the moment I realized I needed the people in my life, I also learned the biggest truth...God is with me. He never left me and his proof is in the humbling experience of feeling that people are appointed to pray for us..he is taking care of us..just trust, Laura...just trust..then breath..then say thank-you..then, go back to bed..!!
Really have been praying for you! You are definitely not alone!! My favorite quote recently that has carried me through so much in the past many months has been, "Your future is as bright as your faith!" Don't give up your faith in Him, He is guiding you through this most difficult time in your life even when you don't realize it!
ReplyDeleteThanks Melissa...I wonder how you are doing with the move and now three little ones..?!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great thing to realize and what a beautifully written blog entry. Praying for you always.
ReplyDeleteI heart you Teresa..!! Hugs Laura
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