Ok..I have a few seconds today for a few lines..
We are still awaiting the Reserve position to officially work out..but, we have good people who are getting things finalized for us, so hopefully we'll get the official paperwork rolling.
We looked at houses here in an area and school district we want to be in, and have decided to wait until around August and be more serious since we have another year to lease. Time is a good thing in our favor..for once..!!
Evan is doing quite well. In fact, somedays I forget we have been through some wild times...until we do something like let him ride his tricycle..that he forgets how to stop on..and almost runs into parked cars..! Then I realize we have plenty of work to do in other areas. But, I don't try to overwhelm myself with things like that too much and i try really hard to focus on the things he's doing more and more. He is handling change very well..not getting so upset if we have a change in routine. He likes to play with Olivia..and can be quite the big brother at times. And other times I catch them smacking each other back and forth and screaming..like typical siblings do..!
I have tried to start a little group at for other moms with kiddos on the spectrum but found that i have run into a little snag. I kind of just though it would be a good, safe place to kind of start..but, it's really not easy. What I have found the most interesting is just how much we moms in this place, with these kiddos, DON'T want to NEED help. That and I feel like I don't know enough about some of the other things these kids are going through. And i feel I'll-equipped..all except the fact that our pain runs pretty deeply..that I know something about!!
So, I have not given up..I just have forgotten how hateful and angry I was at the world..everyone who didn't understand what I was going through. I was angry at people for not giving me words of encouragement, for being so quiet, for making me feel like such a freak. I wanted people to constantly validate my needs and fill them. Yes, I know..but, when you are desperate, this is what you feel.
And now, I feel like we are ahead of the storm..but not quite out..yet, I turn to look at those who are in it..and can only do what people did for me. I will sit quietly, praying all kinds of prayers and wait for the storm to let up a little so I can encourage them to keep going, keep trying..don't give up..!!
I even think some of my friends have tried to pretend that our kids should only be around typical kids from now on..and not be friends. That is not the wisest thing to do..since from the beginning of time we as a people have always sought out people "just like us" to validate us and make us feel normal. You think that through..I've spent most my life wanting a friend who understands and gets me..
Anyways, I dare not leave Olivia out..she is just getting along well. She fills the house with laughter, or giggles with Evan..! She also has developed a strange fascination with calling me "mr. Mommy" Scott is "mr. Daddy" and even grandpa is "mr. Grampa"...!! At least their gender is correct..!! I have tried to tell her over and over to stop calling me that..but, I think it's making it worse. Please don't get me wrong..I think she's cute and all..but in this day and age...well, I don't want a mistaken gender...!!
Other than this folks..Evan starts kindergarden next year..and pretty excited to turn 5 at the end of the month..and have a pirate birthday party with his friends..and several adults who are here for the big bounce house, too..!!
It's beautiful in Colorado right now..I wish you were here..I have a hankering for snickerdoodles..!! :-)
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We are still awaiting the Reserve position to officially work out..but, we have good people who are getting things finalized for us, so hopefully we'll get the official paperwork rolling.
We looked at houses here in an area and school district we want to be in, and have decided to wait until around August and be more serious since we have another year to lease. Time is a good thing in our favor..for once..!!
Evan is doing quite well. In fact, somedays I forget we have been through some wild times...until we do something like let him ride his tricycle..that he forgets how to stop on..and almost runs into parked cars..! Then I realize we have plenty of work to do in other areas. But, I don't try to overwhelm myself with things like that too much and i try really hard to focus on the things he's doing more and more. He is handling change very well..not getting so upset if we have a change in routine. He likes to play with Olivia..and can be quite the big brother at times. And other times I catch them smacking each other back and forth and screaming..like typical siblings do..!
I have tried to start a little group at for other moms with kiddos on the spectrum but found that i have run into a little snag. I kind of just though it would be a good, safe place to kind of start..but, it's really not easy. What I have found the most interesting is just how much we moms in this place, with these kiddos, DON'T want to NEED help. That and I feel like I don't know enough about some of the other things these kids are going through. And i feel I'll-equipped..all except the fact that our pain runs pretty deeply..that I know something about!!
So, I have not given up..I just have forgotten how hateful and angry I was at the world..everyone who didn't understand what I was going through. I was angry at people for not giving me words of encouragement, for being so quiet, for making me feel like such a freak. I wanted people to constantly validate my needs and fill them. Yes, I know..but, when you are desperate, this is what you feel.
And now, I feel like we are ahead of the storm..but not quite out..yet, I turn to look at those who are in it..and can only do what people did for me. I will sit quietly, praying all kinds of prayers and wait for the storm to let up a little so I can encourage them to keep going, keep trying..don't give up..!!
I even think some of my friends have tried to pretend that our kids should only be around typical kids from now on..and not be friends. That is not the wisest thing to do..since from the beginning of time we as a people have always sought out people "just like us" to validate us and make us feel normal. You think that through..I've spent most my life wanting a friend who understands and gets me..
Anyways, I dare not leave Olivia out..she is just getting along well. She fills the house with laughter, or giggles with Evan..! She also has developed a strange fascination with calling me "mr. Mommy" Scott is "mr. Daddy" and even grandpa is "mr. Grampa"...!! At least their gender is correct..!! I have tried to tell her over and over to stop calling me that..but, I think it's making it worse. Please don't get me wrong..I think she's cute and all..but in this day and age...well, I don't want a mistaken gender...!!
Other than this folks..Evan starts kindergarden next year..and pretty excited to turn 5 at the end of the month..and have a pirate birthday party with his friends..and several adults who are here for the big bounce house, too..!!
It's beautiful in Colorado right now..I wish you were here..I have a hankering for snickerdoodles..!! :-)
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad
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