..pain is weakness trying to escape..!
Today I saw the back of a man's t-shirt at the gym today and it said..
"..pain is weakness trying to escape.."
I had to take a minute and think about it..but, I kind of like it!!
Great way to push yourself harder and more intense when you are sore and feel like you just can't.do. another.rep!
And then my mind started to toss around the emotional pain of life and how many times I've had to push past tears and heart-break and anger to steady myself and make it through some days. The pain was pushing me out of my comfort zone..pushing on my weakness button and there were many times when my weaknesses made me feel like a failure and other times where they have taught me that I can do better.
My perspective had to change first, though, to get there.
More specific, my perspective had to change about myself.
Last year I read a blog about how to "stop bullying yourself" and it really made me take a look at my inner dialogue with myself.
And I gotta admit I was pretty hard on me.
I would set my expectations way to high and it would bring me to my all time low. I would hold myself to a standard that I've never met anyone who could meet. And I would hate the way I was made, my wiring, my spirit because my life has been so different, so outside of the box of what seems to be the norm..and then throw in having children who needed more of me.
What an overwhelming place to live!
And then..the humble realization that most of the weight that I was carrying..I placed on myself.
I was the antagonizer and I would hold my very inner self hostage with harsh and abusive words.
Every mistake, every vulnerability, every loss.
I was bullying myself.
And I wanted to be loved greatly by those around me. But, how could I when I so brutally didn't feel that way about myself?
And I came to the slow realization that if you want people to tend to you, care for you and love you...you must first care for and love yourself.
My self-worth was not tied into my marriage, my parenting, past jobs, friends or anything.
It was directly related to how I saw myself and accepting myself, my flaws, my imperfections as little unique pieces of me.
And I began to smile, teary eyed at some of the blunders I've made over the years.
Some I needed to let go of and hand directly over to God.
Redeem it Lord. It's all yours.
Also, Brene Brown's book "Daring Greatly" was a huge blessing to me in so many ways, so many levels.
Over time, I started to replace that harsh voice with a tender, friendly voice and imagining myself as my own best friend. Someone who said the things I needed to hear the most when I've felt as if I've blown it. I would ask myself "what would I say to a good friend?"..then, I'd say it to me.
Honest to goodness it was a game changer for me.
This is a beautiful reminder of this in Lamentatinos 3:22-23...
"..pain is weakness trying to escape.."
I had to take a minute and think about it..but, I kind of like it!!
Great way to push yourself harder and more intense when you are sore and feel like you just can't.do. another.rep!
And then my mind started to toss around the emotional pain of life and how many times I've had to push past tears and heart-break and anger to steady myself and make it through some days. The pain was pushing me out of my comfort zone..pushing on my weakness button and there were many times when my weaknesses made me feel like a failure and other times where they have taught me that I can do better.
My perspective had to change first, though, to get there.
More specific, my perspective had to change about myself.
Last year I read a blog about how to "stop bullying yourself" and it really made me take a look at my inner dialogue with myself.
And I gotta admit I was pretty hard on me.
I would set my expectations way to high and it would bring me to my all time low. I would hold myself to a standard that I've never met anyone who could meet. And I would hate the way I was made, my wiring, my spirit because my life has been so different, so outside of the box of what seems to be the norm..and then throw in having children who needed more of me.
What an overwhelming place to live!
And then..the humble realization that most of the weight that I was carrying..I placed on myself.
I was the antagonizer and I would hold my very inner self hostage with harsh and abusive words.
Every mistake, every vulnerability, every loss.
I was bullying myself.
And I wanted to be loved greatly by those around me. But, how could I when I so brutally didn't feel that way about myself?
And I came to the slow realization that if you want people to tend to you, care for you and love you...you must first care for and love yourself.
My self-worth was not tied into my marriage, my parenting, past jobs, friends or anything.
It was directly related to how I saw myself and accepting myself, my flaws, my imperfections as little unique pieces of me.
And I began to smile, teary eyed at some of the blunders I've made over the years.
Some I needed to let go of and hand directly over to God.
Redeem it Lord. It's all yours.
Also, Brene Brown's book "Daring Greatly" was a huge blessing to me in so many ways, so many levels.
Over time, I started to replace that harsh voice with a tender, friendly voice and imagining myself as my own best friend. Someone who said the things I needed to hear the most when I've felt as if I've blown it. I would ask myself "what would I say to a good friend?"..then, I'd say it to me.
Honest to goodness it was a game changer for me.
This is a beautiful reminder of this in Lamentatinos 3:22-23...
22Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. 23They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Have faith..his compassion, his mercies are new every morning.
And this should be a cue to do the same for ourselves..everyday!
You may not like preachers, priests or anyone telling you what to do. I understand. But, what we tell ourselves will always be our greatest sermon.
So don't bully yourself.
I promise you I won't! ;)
love. and love ya! :)
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