Just me..

I don't think I'll ever qualify to be one of the cool kids. Probably a bit of a nerd..maybe always a little bit misunderstood. (I must confess, I think I'm misunderstood most of the time!)
I'm not a person who has ever, ever liked going "out" just to be seen.
I'd rather stay at home in my jammies, read a book and not have make-up on.
Smart..meh..writing ability..meh..but the glasses do fit...!
I love Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, and most Superhero movies. Oh and least I forget..The Walking Dead...and a few other of the zombie thrillers.
I've maybe attended one concert in my life.
Don't you find it interesting when you are at a concert or watching a live band play, that some people may sway or close their eyes and feel the music. Doesn't matter what band is playing. They are in it!
Like the music and words kind of resonate with your soul...as if someone else took your thoughts and feelings out of your head and wrote a song!
That's what I feel with some of the worship music I hear.
(Bummer..now I've just become even less cool for some..!)
Yet, I do.
Yesterday, I was taking a shower and there was no music playing, but my mind was singing this song over and over....


  

..and just when you think this thought was straight forward..little worship song..all I could imagine is me sitting as the singer (go with me here!) behind the piano and when I get to the part where he says, "you split the sea, so I could walk right through it.." I jump up, kick the piano bench from the piano and sing (probably horribly!) at the top of my lungs.."my fears are drown in perfect love".

Yes, yes..I am now at your mercy to lots of verbal and mental abuses.

But, I feel like worship needs to be all in or nothing.

Here's the very words of Jesus in Luke 19:40..

"I tell you," he replied, "if they keep quiet, the stones will cry out."

And I can't be out done by no stone..!

No..I imagine that I am grabbing, desperately clinging to Jesus' cloak, like this lady..Luke 8:44..

She came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped.

I'm standing with her..watching her..clinging with her as if this is her only hope. I may not be bleeding..but I've reached my hand out desperately at times..looking for answers..and hope!!

Tears..

And I see this lady..Luke 7:38..

As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.

more tears..

What must she have done..to fall to her knees kissing a mans feet..in a society that thought she was just a filthy kind of woman..?! Doesn't your heart break for her..?! Our past doesn't have to hold us hostage in life..

At this point..I'm done through..!

And I see the woman at the well..minding her own business and her own life..when Jesus comes up to tell her all about herself. She is so undone..she runs back to the town to tell the people here in John 4:40

39 Many of the Samaritans from that town believed in him because of the woman’s testimony, “He told me everything I ever did.”

That's my worship.

Just me..clinging to the hope that others before me have testified to. 

Leaving my mark..and not quiet enough to let the rocks cry out beneath my feet..!

I hope you reach a point in worship..where you can unashamedly grasp hold of HIS cloak, let your tears fall, and get excited that you are known..you are found out..undone even..and it's absolutely ok with HIM....Luke 7:47..

Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven--as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little."

No longer a slave to fear..to shame..to anything..you can let all that go..!!

I hope this brings life to you..and if not..well, I told you I was never one of the cool kids..lol!!

:)